WTF!!!

Hi

Today is the darkest day of this blog so far (probably…well possibly)!

Today the girl I asked out a while ago, you know the one who said maybe and then I fucked everything up (well if you don’t know that then you should read my other posts, or don’t), she told some girl who I’ve probably talked about before. This in its simplest form is not that bad she could have left it at that, laughed, said why??, said WTF, said well that’s awkward now she has a boyfriend (with whom I’m good friends with), or anything to that effect and pretty much anything else…but no she just went aaaaarrrrrr not the understanding kind, not the pirate kind (which should be written as argh with repetitive letters by the way), or any other kind; the kind which you would say to a cat or a baby who has just learnt who to say Mum or I love you.

It didn’t hit me to start with I just shrugged it off but when I was thinking about it more (like I usually do but have been doing much more systematically and logically ever since I started this blog) I thought to myself…wait…what…the…fuuuuuuuck, that’s not what’s meant to have happen it’s meant to be embarrassing or awkward not cute or adorable or whatever the hell she was thinking when she made that earth shattering sound. I couldn’t of given even the slightest of shits to anything else but this I cringe at the thought.

I’m not sure I have explained well enough I have done my very best to seem datable or whatever else you want to call it but I got effectively laughed into the ground after someone thought I had actually asked someone out. It may have been because she thought I was too shy, not in her (the other girls not the one I asked out) league, thought I am gay, or any number of things; none of which seem to be good unless I was looking for pitty sex which I’m not despite being to be honest pretty desperate unfortunately. I fucking hate this as I have no idea which of the many things that could have caused this and even less of a clue only because I don’t know what the first thing is and the most annoying thing is I could change this around only if I knew why and I can’t just ask her because that would just muck everything more up or would it…I don’t know.

On a funnier note that should be really awkward but I just can’t stop laughing to myself. My Dad (and Mum but that’s a different story) discovered I watch porn so he decided that I should be told about a thing or too because an almost 16 year old kid doesn’t know anything about relationships sex or porn obviously (too be honest I think I probably knew more than he does now when I was about 9). So he went on a righteous strict religious rant that its not right to have sex with people outside of marriage and especially not this young, at this point he then decided to talk about the porn so he practically said ” These days its a lot worse…uh…I mean that’s what I heard…uh…on the news and apparently there’s a lot more abuse towards the women and it objectifies them.” and there’s my brother standing outside the door trying his hardest not to laugh loudly and there’s me trying not to show that I’m laughing on the inside and it’s almost bursting out and thinking to myself, whilst nodding and going yeah, how does it objectify women I have found a new appreciation towards the female body and you might as well of just admitted you watch porn and some doggey shit at that since you were a kid.

Bye thanks for reading

Please give me any advice about the aaaarrrrr thing